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Career Health Work

No Days Off

The weather on the east coast is very hot and unbearably humid. My daughters like to play in the water and chase lightning bugs. We are in the midst of the summer. The calendar is about to flip to August. It sometimes feels normal.

But it’s not a normal summer. We’re all still living under a cloud of uncertainty and fear as an invisible, silent genocidal killer continues to haunt us.

And I haven’t had a complete day off since March 8th.

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Fatherhood Life Writing

I’m Keeping a COVID-19 Journal

I’m not a journaler by nature. 

Yes, I have written down my innermost thoughts on occasion, but generally I jot down short quick notes on almost everything that pops into my brain that I then compile to use later for writing that I will publish, either here or in my newsletter.

Yet I felt that living through a time when a viral droplet infection — a silent, invisible killer — raced across the globe and was documented in real time was as good an occasion as any to keep a daily record of my thoughts. 

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Life

A Dream Shattered

It’s after 1 a.m. on a Saturday night/Sunday morning and while I’m ostensibly doing work for a class I’m taking, I can’t stop thinking about a phone call I received today. The bottle of wine I just finished is helping with the deep reflection, just FYI.

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Life True Story

“I Think I’m Having a Heart Attack”

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I was sure it was nothing.

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Children Fatherhood

Our IVF Journey

“Don’t judge each day by the harvest you reap, but by the seeds that you plant.”

Robert Louis Stevenson

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My second time visiting an operating room as an expectant father was different from the first in a variety of ways.

It was in a different hospital in a different city with different doctors.

Most of all, though, it was planned.

The baby was so big that a Cesarean section (C-section) was scheduled on the morning of her due date. We arrived at the hospital at 6:30 a.m., my wife was being prepped at 7:30, and she was taken into the OR at 8:30.

At 9:07 a.m., we had a big, healthy baby girl.

For the second time.

When our brand new daughter was first given to us, my wife looked at her and said, “It took so long for you to get here.”

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Life

Battling the “Fuck It” mindset

“Instant gratification takes too long”

— Carrie Fisher, Postcards from the Edge

It’s a new year, so of course everyone is making resolutions and plans and promises.